HIGH MAINTAINANCE

2008-05-14T02:12:00.000-07:00

i am supprisingly ok with it :)
im kinda shocked i must say
but hey close the door n move on every1 tells me
n thats wat im doin......
never judge a book by its cover....
and who ever said
the grass looks greener on the other side
should be shot dead xoxoxo never trust anyone.....
they wod have never tot f me that way
if sum 1 didnt speak about it....
but how wod they know if that sum 1 is lying r not....
that is the big question?
take a chance
take a risk
make a choice
and never look back to regret
just laugh it off Thasha laugh it off ....
or else ur gonna b laughing at urself

2008-05-14T01:46:00.000-07:00

Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Travelling I always stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the...
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

2008-04-09T03:01:00.000-07:00

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.

You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.

Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.

You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.

You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

2008-04-09T02:46:00.000-07:00

I AM SO FREAKING DEAD TIRED

I JUST GOT BACK FROM THE

BALAI BOMBA SHAH ALAM AND

THEY TREATED US LIKE DOGS

SO YEA I'M EXHAUSTED

HAIIIIIZZZZZ BUT I WENT BACK

TO SAHA'S HOUSE AFTER THAT SO

I WAS OK.........I HAD LOADS F FUN

I JUST REALISED HOW FUN A BUNCH

OF CUTE FORM 3 BOYS CAN BE THEY'RE

SO ADORABLE LA....HAIIIZZZ SADLY

I'M 2 YEARS OLDER TSK TSK

2 BAD OH WELL AT LEAST

I GOT TO KNOW THEM

FROM THIS BOMBA THING WELL I HAD FUN!

2008-04-04T04:40:00.000-07:00

party at my place tomorrow.....

im a the new cocktail waitress

along side my 2 fellow twin cousins heheh love em.....

best part is im getting paid

10ringgit an hour not that bad right :)....

2008-03-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

I HAVE A CONFESSION

I THINK ITS TIME

FOR ME TO REVEAL THE TRUTH

THE TRUTH IVE BEEN HIDING

ALL THIS WHILE

AND I THINK U HAVE

THE RIGHT TO KNOW

I HAVE A BABY

HER NAME IS SHREEYA LYRA

I LOVE HER SO MUCH

AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO ADMIT IT

SHES MY BABY GAL

AND I'M PROUD OF IT

2008-03-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

2008-03-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

2008-03-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

i got my new phone

2008-03-25T04:02:00.000-07:00

IM IN A PLAY

A REALLY BAD SCHOOL PLAY

MEANING THE PERSON I PLAY

IS A RAPED WOMAN AND

I HAVE TO GIVE BIRTH

ITS A PLAY DONE BY P.RAMLEE

IMAGINE IM GONA RUIN AN EXTREMELY

NICE PLAY YIKKKEESS

IM SORRY MR.P.RAMLEE SIRR

2008-03-25T04:00:00.000-07:00

I WENT TO SAHA'S HOUSE ARGGGHHHH

MAGIC HAPPEND LA....

I HAVE TO AND MUST REPEAT

MAGIC HAPPNED

WOOOOOHHHHOOOOO

2008-03-21T03:54:00.000-07:00

2008-03-21T03:48:00.000-07:00

hes starting to be cold towards me.....

cant say i didnt see it coming

the insults have started...

the signs are there

i dont know wat to do

i love him to much

im even starting to get mad really fast

i cant seem to stand the jokes he makes anymore

im taking everything over board

i dont know wat to do

but i know that hes losing love for me....

oh geezzzzzzz

sum 1 tell me wat to do

i love him to much

i cant afford to loose him

this all started after i realised

or shod i say was told that

i was just another girl

2008-03-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

zhi ji did this...awwwwww so cute

2008-03-21T02:03:00.000-07:00

am i really just another gal?

well saha said i was

i was really hurt but

then i realised that it was true

i am just another gal

jezzzz i never knew i was that boring

oo sexy

2008-03-07T23:59:00.001-08:00

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2008-03-07T23:52:00.001-08:00

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2008-03-07T22:24:00.000-08:00

2008-03-07T20:35:00.001-08:00

What kind of drink are you?

My Result: Alcholic Beverage!

Hmmmm maybe beer, wine or champagne its cool cause you like to have a good time!

What are you?http://web.tickle.com/net/caq/quiz.html?id=13450309

2008-03-07T08:25:00.000-08:00

oh man im so un malaysian la

Congratulations , you are 48% not Malaysian.

That means you're as Malaysian as...

Michelle Yeoh!

How Un-Malaysian Are You?

2008-03-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU PRIYA
I LOVE YOU HUI YEE
I LOVE YOU ALIAA
I LOVE YOU KARAN
I LOVE YOU HASH
I LOVE YOU BARNEY
I LOVE YOU NEERUSHA
I LOVE YOU SAHA
I LOVE YOU NAVEEN
I LOVE YOU ROSHAN
I LOVE YOU TUN SYAFIQ
I LOVE YOU SUNDEEP
I LOVE YOU RENETHA
I LOVE YOU RAHUL
I LOVE YOU HARPREET
I LOVE YOU BANU
I LOVE YOU NABILAH
I LOVE YOU TANIA
I LOVE YOU DEEPHA
I LOVE YOU JHANA
I LOVE YOU DARVEEN
I LOVE YOU YI WEI
I LOVE YOU KAR KEI
I LOVE YOU MICHELLE
I LOVE YOU MUN CHENG
I LOVE YOU UMIE
I LOVE YOU SYAZA
I LOVE YOU WANA
I LOVE YOU AMIRUL
I LOVE YOU EMILIO
I LOVE YOU ANDREW
I LOVE YOU WAI KIN
I LOVE YOU IZZUDDIN
I LOVE YOU BUDIMAN
I LOVE YOU SYAFIQ
I LOVE YOU NALLINI
I LOVE YOU DAVIN
I LOVE YOU SASHA
I LOVE YOU LENNY
I LOVE YOU LANCHESTER
I LOVE YOU SHARIAN
I LOVE YOU AMEET
I LOVE YOU ASHMEN
I LOVE YOU NATASHA
I LOVE YOU NATANYA
I LOVE YOU RAJEEV
I LOVE YOU TANITA
I LOVE YOU RHIANNIE
I LOVE YOU CHOCOLATES
I LOVE YOU CAKES
I LOVE YOU SUGAR
I LOVE YOU TEDDY BEARS
I LOVE YOU SHOPPING
I LOVE YOU ROCK CLIMBING
I LOVE YOU GREEN
I LOVE YOU SCHOOL
I LOVE YOU BEACH
I LOVE YOU MUSIC
I LOVE YOU DANCING
I LOVE YOU CAN WHORING
I LOVE YOU SECRET RECIPIE
I LOVE YOU BASKIN ROBBINS
I LOVE YOU HAGEN DAAZ
I LOVE YOU PARIS
I LOVE YOU JAY SEAN
I LOVE YOU BOW WOW

2008-03-07T00:58:00.000-08:00

MY SUNNY BOY IS LEAVING MALAYSIA
MY BESTEST FRIEND IS GOING AWAY FOR GOOD

AND I DONT EVEN KNOW IF HE'S COMING BACK
WELL I HOPE THE BEST FOR HIM
HEY SUNNY BOY....
GOOD LUCK
AND IM HERE FOR U ALWAYS

2008-03-07T00:51:00.000-08:00

im going to
genting highlands haiizzz
i dun wana go..
i'm gona miss
my baby boy....
but im forced to laa...
sad case rite..
sobs sobs..
any1 wana come
with me ah???

2008-03-07T00:19:00.000-08:00

ALLA SO SWETT

2008-03-07T00:12:00.000-08:00

Alla JANGAN LA EMO SANGAT
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE STRANDED ON A ISLAND ALL ALONE

2008-03-05T22:59:00.000-08:00

HOLY CRAP

MY GRANDMA IS LEAVING

FOR MIDDLE EAST.....

THAT MEANS NO MORE FOOD.

HOWEVER SHE HAS PROMISED

TO SEND FOOD ...

BUT STILLL NO MAGIC LA...

NOT CHUN LIKE THAT LA....

SOBS SOBS...

I NEED SOME NEW LOVE..

I AM FINDING A SUB TO

SUBSTITUE MY GRANDMOTHER.

LINES WILL BE OPENED

AS SOON AS SHE LEAVES....

RULES AND REGULATIONS:

MUST KNOW HOW TO COOK
MUST WEAR CAFTAN
MUST FEED ME
BUY ME STUFF.

2008-03-05T22:57:00.000-08:00

OWH shit la....

im having a terrible flu and fever

arrrrggghhh just my luck la

seriously im cursed

2008-03-05T22:52:00.001-08:00

Oh thank god......

the exams are finally over..

a whole week of torture

has finally come to an end

now i just have to wait for the torture...

when i get my results

wish me luck 4 that

2008-02-28T23:06:00.000-08:00

Boys and girls wanna hear a true story?

Saturday night I was at this real wild party,

they had the liquor overflowin' the cup,

about 5 or 6 strippers tryin to work for a buck,

and I took one girl outside wit me,

her name was Lonni, she went to Jr. High wit me,

I said,

Why you up in there dancin' for cash?

I guess a whole alots changed since I seen you last

She said

what would you do if your son was at home,

cryin' all alone on the bedroom floorcuz he's hungry,

and the only way to feed him is to sleep with a man for a little bit of money

and his daddy's gone,

somewhere smokin' rock now,

in and out of lock down,

I ain't got a job now,

so for you this is just a good time but for me this is what I call life mmm,

u ain't the only one wit a baby,

that's no excuse to be livin' all crazy,

then she looked me right square in the eye,

and said every day I wake up hopin' to die,

she said-nigga I know about pain cuz,

me and my sister ran away so my daddy couldn't rape us,

before I was a teenager I been through more shit,

that you can't even relate ta...

what would you do?

get up on my feet and let go of every excuse

what would you do?

cuz I wouldn't want my baby to go through what I wentthrough

(come on)what would you do?

Get up on my feet and stop makin' up tired excuses

What would you do?

girl I know if my mother can do it,

baby you can do it

what would you do if your son was at home,

cryin' all alone on the bedroom floorcuz he's hungry,

and the only way to feed him is to sleep with a man

for a little bit of money and his daddy's gone,

somewhere smokin' rock now,

in and out of lock down,

I ain't got a job now

so for you this is just a good time

but for me this is what I call life mmm

2008-02-28T22:57:00.000-08:00

friends

2008-02-28T22:26:00.001-08:00

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2008-02-28T22:24:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-28T21:34:00.000-08:00

wakakakakakkakaka

kakaakakakakka

SAHA viewied my bloody blog..

embaresing man......

hajoo kaduhvelaiiiii hahahhahah

2008-02-26T22:41:00.001-08:00

2008-02-25T22:48:00.000-08:00

yayy i got my fon back....
finally after the long wait...
after so many months..
and weeks and days..
omg i sumtimes wonder how i even survived the battle.....
yea never mind overly drama already..
but yea i got my fon back...
Mieah got her phone back heheheheh

2008-02-25T22:38:00.000-08:00

man im strong......
me n priya decided to wrestle..
and and and i won..yes me ..mua...i...
yayyyy me

miss flirtacious fierceness

2008-02-25T22:27:00.000-08:00

I honestly didnt know i was that flitacious.
I mean if i am....
im doing it with out realising it..
im not doing it on purpose i promise.
I never knew i was till Saha told me i was....
I WAS SHOCKED...
and kinda hurt at the same time
so i went to school and asked around and lets just say....
Saha was right!!!
OMG...i have to go fix my self now....
i have to stop being so flirty...
Ive even got a name miss flirtacious fierceness...
sounds hawtt but...nahhhhhhh....
i can do better than that ;)

2008-02-24T23:50:00.000-08:00

dosen't this song just makes you wana get up and sing along ahha yea right ;)

boooo hoooo

2008-02-24T23:27:00.001-08:00

ok lets see if ive really found the right 1...i'll give u the signs i feel....and u judge :)

I cant stop thinking of him
I text him even when im in the shower
I painted him something really awesome
I love him to bitts
I cried for him....and as u know i dont cry
I dream about him every night
I pray for him befor i go to sleep
I have a special pillow named after him
I get jealous when girls talk to him
I try my best to flatter him
I would do anything just to look in his eyes
I cant sleep.....i just want to talk to him more and more
I cant say good bye to him
I defend him :)
I worry if he gets back home safe all the time

2008-02-24T23:27:00.000-08:00

2008-02-24T23:22:00.000-08:00

love love love

2008-02-24T23:13:00.001-08:00

omg i love love love him argggghhhhhhh...sum 1 please help me..im going crazy!!!

2008-02-22T00:37:00.000-08:00

IM THINKING OF THIS TATTOO

FOR MY LOWER BACK.

WHAT DO YOU THINKK?

SUITS ME?

I NEED YOUR OPINION....

TELL ME NOW PWEETY PWEESE

me and beyonce...

2008-02-22T00:33:00.000-08:00

the way the cookie crumbles says:
i think..the look u hve ..when ur all tired...n exhausted
the way the cookie crumbles says:
makes you look a little like
the way the cookie crumbles says:
beyonce

the way the cookie crumbles just sent you a nudge.

I DRINK TRIPLE SEE DOUBLE AND STAY SINGLE nobody wants to be lonely..nobody wants to cry says:
wat r u talking about
the way the cookie crumbles says:
you

the way the cookie crumbles just sent you a nudge.

I DRINK TRIPLE SEE DOUBLE AND STAY SINGLE nobody wants to be lonely..nobody wants to cry says:
huh?
the way the cookie crumbles says:
you lookin a bit like her

F.Y.I...thats the way the crookie crumbles is Priya...hahaha I look like beyonce...yayyy

i wuvvv this alot man woohhooo

2008-02-21T23:56:00.003-08:00

Myspace Sexy Graphics

.............

2008-02-21T23:56:00.001-08:00

Myspace Sexy Graphics

camerons

2008-02-21T23:51:00.000-08:00

i wana go to camerons but...
sobs sobs..no one fun is going ..
not even Tun but he said he will go if i do......
awwww so sweet but still boring right with out my Priya and Hui yee

its me

2008-02-21T23:47:00.001-08:00

Myspace Girly Graphics

MY EYES!!!!!!!!

2008-02-21T23:23:00.000-08:00

My eyesssssss...aaaahhhh I'm now the laughing clown of the class.

I finaly realised that i have an eye problem.

I didn't know since when but today Hui Yee told it straight to my face.

YOU'RE EYES AERN'T THE SAME SIZE....

THE LEFT SIDE IS SMALLER THAN YOUR RIGHT EYE.

I was like ohhh what the fuck man.

I was so emo the whole day and now everyone in class knows about it.

ARRGGHHHH im thinking of surgery!

what do you think?

suggestions please sob sob

Tell me if it's you....please

2008-02-21T22:03:00.000-08:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows always

Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)

Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)

Someone who I can run to,

who would stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with trough the night

Someone who I can trust who's hardest right

And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows always

Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Want to share,

shows he cares

Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant How much I care (How much I care)

And appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you?

is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you

2008-02-21T21:51:00.000-08:00

Omg i just love this song.

She speaks every girls truth.

Especially mine.

She talks my talk.

Thank you Cassie For speaking and reading my mind.

Love you

SO CUTEEEE

2008-02-19T22:23:00.000-08:00

Omg dont you just think that he has the most incredible eyes ever its like it says come to me come to me hehehh..im nutsss....but hey thats the beauty of contact lenses huh....IM GETTING BROWN ONES.....HEAR THAT HUI YEE AND PRIYA.......ARRRGHH HE IS JUST SO CUTE..IM GONA BITE HIM

2008-02-19T03:38:00.001-08:00

i like him but

2008-02-18T22:32:00.000-08:00

i really do like him ...im really sure about it
but i dont know if he likes me
i mean we are diffrent
i dont know what people might think of us
such a big gap between us
someone help me pleaseeeeee

123 STARS

2008-02-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

WEEEEE I HAVE MADE 123 STARS...

SO CHUNTED RIGHT.....I

M GOING TO GIVE IT SOME ONE SPECIAL I N A BOX....

ITS GOING TO BE AWESOME....

WELL I HOPE HE LIKES IT :)

help me

2008-02-14T21:54:00.000-08:00

i like him but i dont even know if he even likes me at all...

arggghh im so stressed out right now..

somebody please help me..

tell me what to do

2008-02-13T23:12:00.001-08:00

LOVE BUGG?

2008-02-13T22:58:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG OMG OH MY FREAKING GOD....

OKOK GOD IS NOT FREAKING SO JUST OH MY GOD.......

IM CRYING.....

JUST TEARING BUT I HAVEN'T

FELT LIKE THIS IN A LONG TIME....

AND I LOVE IT.....

HE YES HE WROTE ME A REALLY NICE POEM FOR VALENTINES DAY....

IT WAS SO......

TOUCHING AND SWEET AND NICE

AND WELL YOU GET THE POINT...

BUT I JUST NEVER EXPECTED HIM TO DO ALL OF THAT

AND IM JUST SO TOUCHED....SOBS SOBS....

AWWWWWW....I JUST WANA HUG HIM AND KISS HIM NOW..

SOBSSS...I THINK THE LOVE BUGG JUST STUNG ME AGAIN...

woooohhooo

2008-02-12T23:05:00.000-08:00

my pet sis...aka....close friend is now going out with my ex-boyfriend..yea the guy that caused me to hate all guys....but to my supprise im not angry or depressed or guilty...so now i know for sure that he never loved me and i never did either....I CAN MOVE ON NOW...yay me...congratulate me la haiyooooo

to love again or not

2008-02-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

to love again or not that is the freaking question in my bloody life......someone help me...im scared ..really scared..valentines day is officially like just a few more hours away and im still talking to the crush of my life on MSN..haiizzz....i always tell my self to take chance's because life is short so might as well live it to the fullest...and if i dont take this chance i will never know if he is the guy or not...but on the other hand i am super scared to get in a relationship.....some help me will you please

Perhentian

2008-02-11T22:39:00.000-08:00

ok i am officailly as black as charcoal lol....

11 ppl went....

none came back the same colour they left with....

THAT IS NOT AN INSULT TASHA..lol...

i think...the love bugg bit me again...

darn love bugsss..

2008-02-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

I'M GOING TO PULAU PERHENTIAN FOR CHIENESE NEW YEAR SHITTEEEEHHHH

ku katakan dengan indah by peter pan

2008-02-04T23:03:00.000-08:00

bukan diriku.............

2008-02-04T22:57:00.000-08:00

I MISS MY OLD TUNNIEEE BOY

2008-02-04T22:41:00.001-08:00

i miss my old Tun...

i really do..

he was so emo today

when he came and sat

beside me after seeing me extreamly emofied....

what was i to do i was confused...

i hate myself right now...

i didnt know what to say..everythime i ask him whats wrong

he says tak de ape-ape and i say the same when he asks me...

but i know it's got something to do with me ..its totally obvious....

Tun i miss the old you....

be yourself la..... me

i reAlly do miss you..haiizzz

but the problem is..

i know it's got everything to do with me

Tun you cant hide anything from me...

better tell me!!!

maafkan aku

2008-02-04T22:29:00.000-08:00

setelah kupahami

ku bukan yang terbaik

yang ada di hatimu

tak dapat kusangsikan

ternyata dirinyalah yang

mengerti kamu bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku bila ku menjadi bisu

kepada dirimu bukan santunku

terbungkam hanya hatiku

berbatas tuk mengerti kamu

maafkanlah aku

walau kumasih mencintaimu

kuharus meninggalkanmu

kuharus melupakanmu

meski hatiku menyayangimu

nurani membutuhkanmu

kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu

yang mampu memahamiku

yang dapat mengerti aku

ternyata dirinyalah yang

sanggup menyanjungmu

yang lama menyentuhmu

bukanlah diriku

to pierce my belly or not?

2008-02-03T23:08:00.000-08:00

well ive been doing alot of thinking bout this and

i really want to get my belly pierced but im scared

of getting it pierced.IM SCARED OF THE PAIN..

MAJOR PAIN...

HAIIZZ I NEED HELP!!!

should i or should i not?

GREATTTTTT...............

2008-02-03T23:01:00.000-08:00

this is just great init..

TUN read my fucked up blog.....

crappy rite..i dunno how bad my life could get la...haiizz..

i think im gona comitt suicide...wait did i spel that right..:P...

neways...i am super sad now..i mean i should be right?

haiiizzz...thats just crazy butttt........

i really feel sad..

he still dosen't wan to talk to me soobbsss...

TUNNNNIIEEE talk to me la pleaseee pweesee

Tun is angry AGAIN

2008-01-31T22:14:00.000-08:00

Tun is angry at me argghhh that boy ah.....

i cant even believe he is royalty thats just so totally awesome....

Tun Mohd Shafiiq..my husband is not talking to me...

everytime i go and try to pujuk him he will just cover his face....

and laugh..and and he wont talk to me...

but when my friends go and ask him wats the deal he tells them that he is just playing...

BUT I DONT THINK THATS TRUE...

sobs Tun talk to me pleaseeeeee...

freaky????i think NOT ;)

2008-01-31T22:09:00.000-08:00

welll it is now obvious Teethan likes me yayyy me...

hip hip horayyyy...the cutie lil broom stick boy officialy likes me...

i dunno how.IT IS DEFINETLY CLEAR THAT I GET WHATEVER I WANT :)

i guess im lucky in that way to Priya Aliaa and Hui yee HE IS NOT UGLY....

and he dosent look like a cat ok..he is so adorable....

but it all seems kind of freaky....

we just spoke like for 15 minutes together and suddenly he likes me......

ooo did i tell u i like myself ;) for this!

2008-01-29T23:23:00.000-08:00

HES MY MAN TRY TOUCHING HIM AND YOU WILL NOW WHAT IT'S LIKE LIVING IN HELL

HE IS THE MOST CUTEST THING IVE EVER SEEN

2008-01-29T23:21:00.000-08:00

Is it really worth it falling in love with some one who u think will last forever with you but you know will never happen?

2008-01-29T23:09:00.000-08:00

haiiyyaaaaa Teethan ahhhh

2008-01-29T22:41:00.000-08:00

Today i had to go to the bilik UBK to hand in my stuff which i made for the UBK board..so nice of me right :) and i was accompanied by Neerusha Priya and sonia...and when we got there my per bro Ridzie,Dinie and the ever so cutttee Teethan was there...awww...and he ofcourse had to start fighting with me...the first thing he told me was go back to class lah u... of course i scolded him back and this was all playfully la...and i went straight to Cik Hong and gave her my things and so she asked me to help her do another something..haiizzz i pity myself...and once again Teethan started bullying me sobss sobss..but he was so adorable....and right timing my tube had to start falling...how awesome is my life right!!! and then i told my pet bro Ridzie to cover me while i pull my tube up and Ridzie said to just let it fall and Teethan got angry yayyy and started scolding him...and i said that if i didn't pull it up u could see everything and Teethan asked.....at least u have ur bra right arggghhhh..lol...but he was so cute and Ridzie and Dini started kacauing him by saying that me n him are together and how Teethan thinks I'm haawwwttt aww so Sweet....he promised he would belanja me drink yayyyy...after all the bullying he gave me..i deserved it...

I GOT MARRIED

2008-01-29T22:32:00.000-08:00

omg omg omg...Tun asked me to be his wife to day..that was so sweet of him.....well it all started when i was pestering him to talk to me because he was angry at me as he claimed that i was cheating on him(which i wasn't by the way)and so our friends made us talk to each other by asking us questions just like in a game show......i even had to hit the buzzer every time i had to answer a question lol......and 1 of the questions they asked Tun was do u like Reshmi and and and he said MESTILAH omg rite....and they asked me as well and i said yeaaa...and so Hizami asked the whole class for permission and they all answered that they are fine with the both of us being together!!!!i was blushing..i actually was...and then Tun got down on one knee!!!!!!!aaaaahhhhhhh..... and and and omg he asked me to be his wife......so sweet right....hajjooo i wanted to melt edi and our ring was donated by Mr.Hizami...lol he drew a ring with Tuns initials on my marriage finger..awwww but just so you'll know this was just a game OK..it wasn't real...I'm not married...i repeat I AM NOT MARRIED!!!!!

confused confused

2008-01-28T22:27:00.000-08:00

once again i am so caught up .....my darn love life just enjoyes being so.......well just so...i guess haizzz its pure torture....theres a form 5 boy a form 4 boy n a form 3 boy...sobbss i really dont know what to do at all...i am so freakin lost haiizzz....all three of them like me...but i like all f them as well...two ive know them for like 3 years but i just cant seem to decide which 1...the form 5 guy got madd at me today because i told him off and he saw me talking to other guys so he got really mad at me and stoped talking to me the form 4 guy got interviewed by my brother whom interigated him lol..poor thing....and he said that he was scared to ask me to be his gall..and the form 3 guy welll hes just being my sweet lil kiddo as usuall.....HELP PEOPLE ..I NEED HELP PLEASE

DARN CRUSHES

2008-01-27T23:19:00.000-08:00

OMG I THINK I HAVE A CRUSH ON TUN......EVERY1 SAYS WE LOOK AWESOME TOGETHER..BUT IM SCARED LA....HE LIKES ME TO HE TOLD ME BUT U KNOW...IM INDIAN HES MALAY .....ARRRGHHH U KNOW LA WAT HAPPEN LAST TIME..SO YEA IM PREETY SCARED HAIIZZ.. BUT I LIKE A FORM 4 GUY AS WELL..HAIIZZ THIS IS JUST AWESOME LA...I NEED HELP..SUM 1 HELP ME PLEASE....

SAYA PANAS

2008-01-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

SAYA PANAS......lol me priya hui yee and aliaa we're sitting down in class being bums as usuall..and we were thinkin of wat to put as our personal message on MSN.....and we came up with IM HOT...PLEASE TURN ME ON and so we decided to change it into malay....and now we have SAYA PANAS ...TOLONG PASANGKAN SAYA....really cute right lol....

I DID ACCOUNTS

2008-01-25T00:48:00.000-08:00

ok so u know me right..i suck at accounts always have been actually..i hate anything to do with freaking numbers..they just suck to the max la seriously..haiizz...so Miss priya got fed up with me n ..n..n she made me do it......she made me sit down on my chair and made me do 2 accounts.....omg right ...so i actually had to sit down with a pen in my hand and do accounts....n priya was all like U SIT DOWN HERE AND U FINISH THIS..so i was like kinda scared..but i was kinda happy in the end coz i actually know how to do it now...and the best part is PRIYA is proud of me..so im really happy because i made her happy!!!!!

omg my new teacher

2008-01-22T06:09:00.000-08:00

OMG I HAVE THIS AWSOME NEW CLASS TEACHER THAT TEACHES ME ENGLISH ASWELL..AND LIKE HE IS JUST SO AWESOME...HE MAKES ME LAUGH TO MUCH ACTUALY...BUT HE IS JUST AWESOME..HE ISINT LIKE ANY OTHER ORDINARY TEACHER OUT THERE..THIS TEACHER TALKS ABOUT REALLY FUN STUFF LIKE USED CONDOMS AND HOW HE NEARLY KISSED A MAN..HE IS JUST SO MUCH FUN....MR.THIRU UR DA MAN LA..SERIOUSLY LOL...HE REALLY IS..HE SO TOTALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS..HEHHE BEST PART IS..EVERYONE THINKS THAT PRIYA IS GOING TO MARRY HIM BECAUSE WELL THEY CLICK I GUESS..WELL THATS JUST A JOKE I HOPE UNLESS SHE REALLY LIKES HIM THEN IM GOING TO HATE HER FOREVER...hehe IM EVIL...

2008-01-22T06:03:00.000-08:00

Dreaming about them made me feel a little queasy...i had actually convinced one of my friends whom i tot of as my sister 2 get a tattoo (i no can u believe it)....it took me a while to realize my mistake....she isn't the type and neither am i.....to even think of such a thing was beyond my imagination.....i never thought of it that way until a guy friend told me off..he told me i had changed and that everyone of ma friends had actually sat down and talked about me..thinking of ways to change ma back to my old self....i snapped as the first thing that came to my mind was them talking behind ma back,stabbing my back ..i felt like a deer being hunted down by hungry lions in Africa....it took me a while to realize that i was the one at fault and that they wer just looking out for me....they wouldn't have even told me that i was being a bitch and mixing wit d wrong sort of people if they didn't want me 2 b on the good side.... but wasn't it my wish who i wanna mix around wit????wasn't it my wish what i wanna do wit ma body???wasn't it my wish if i wanted 2 b a Lil More daring than i tot i ever could???i quick lycame to my sense as i realized that i didn't know myself anymore..the simi i nu would never wanna try smoking or any of that nonsense.....i realized on that day how much i had hurt my friends.....even though i made a whole load of sacrifices on that day choosing my dear friends over a bunch of people whom deals wit drugs and talks about sex 24/7 was worth everything in this world....i apologized and they didn't seem2 care and neither was i....they continued 2 love me without any barriers......i found ma self landing in bed thinking about how lucky i was to have them in my life and not many people are as fortunate as i am........choosing my friends over drugs ,tattoos ,cigarettes and worthless people was the best choice i had made in my life....and i would not trade them for anything in this world because they are as what i would like to call " priceless"..and i will promise to continue to keep the friendship and this bond as strong as possible.....that was a vow which i had made and committed 2 ma dear friends on that day.

darn form 5

2008-01-22T06:00:00.000-08:00

OK i give up..form 5 is pure hell..in fact i think they're brothers....arghh pure evil man....its super duper stress full...all the home works are starting to pile up.....the extra activities are hectic..on top f that..i have to do extra work for UBK....shit man.....argghh I'm getting stress pimples as it is..i need DR.Ranjit...to cure me hahhahah..thank god for him..haizz...the worst part is .i have to go trough this shit alone..i mean no bf so freaking sad rite haiizz..oh well.....I'm begging to love it actually

I NEVER WANTED YOU

2008-01-16T22:32:00.000-08:00

I told you nicely
with an open heart
that i had feeling's for you
it felt like a wound getting close to it..i sensed it
You made me feel great
but maybe i took it the wrong way
because i thought it was love..i don't think you did
But my heart
always makes you my priority
always makes you the one
always thinks about you and forgives you
you broke my heart
you tore it apart
and then you stepped on it
just to see yourself being happy with another girl
You brighten my life
you bring joy to it
and you just tore my heart
because you were selfish
you made me fall
till i hit the ground
You make me feel it everyday
you make me think about you everyday
everything that we did together
all the fun we shared with each other
just ended...even with out me knowing it
you ended it

HOW COULD YOU

2008-01-16T22:30:00.000-08:00

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME,I THOUGHT YOU CARED FOR ME,I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE FOR ME.I KNOW YOU THINK I'M A SLUT MIXING AROUND WITH THOSE PEOPLE....AT LEAST I NEVER SLEPT WITH ANY OF THEM.YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME FROM THE BEGINNING THAT YOU NEVER WANTED ME.I WOULDN'T HAVE STAYED UP TILL 6 IN THE MORNING CHATTING WITH YOU ON LINE,I WOULDN'T HAVE CUT MY HAIR,I WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN A TATTOO,I WOULDN'T HAVE STAYED UP WITH YOU WHEN YOUR FRIENDS MOM PASSED AWAY.I WOULDN'T HAVE FORGIVEN YOU EVEN AFTER YOU BROKE UP WITH ME,I WOULDN'T HAVE TAUGHT YOU HOW TO KISS ,I WOULDN'T HAVE LET YOU HUG ME,I WOULDN'T HAVE PIERCED MY NOSE FOR YOU,I WOULDN'T DREAM OF YOU EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP,I WOULDN'T HAVE STARED AT YOUR PICTURES ALL THE TIME.I WOULDN'T HAVE THOUGHT OF WHAT YOU WERE DOING,I WOULDN'T HAVE THOUGHT IF YOUR ALRIGHT EVERY TIME YOU GO OUT AND I WOULDN'T HAVE EVEN TRIED LOVING YOU.AT LEAST I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN HURT SO MUCH.I DON'T HAVE A HEART AS HARD AS A ROCK LIKE YOU DO.I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD DO THIS TO ME.HOW COULD YOU?I THOUGHT YOU REALLY LOVED ME...I WAS WRONG AGAIN...COULDN'T YOU HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BIT MORE UNDERSTANDING..MAYBE IF YOU STOP BEING SO SELFISH AND THINK ABOUT OTHERS FIRST THEN PEOPLE MITE START RESPESCTING YOU..I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND YOU JUST RIPPED MY HEART APART LIKE I WAS ONE OF YOUR HATTED PEOPLE THAT YOU CHOP...YOU MAYBE A GANGSTER AND ALL BUT TO ME YOU WERE JUST A BOY TRYING TO FIND WHO YOU REALLY WERE.I GUESS I'M JUST ANOTHER GIRL TO YOU HUH....WELL IT WAS NICE KNOWING YOU....I'LL SEE YOU AROUND

BROKEN

2008-01-16T22:24:00.000-08:00

Yours was the perfect love,
I swear it was.
Until I had your love,
my world was cold.
I did what most men do,
and I messed it up.
But when I got you back,
my world was whole.
(The player thing I let it go, thought our life was set in stone)
But it wasn’t, and I’m here alone.(Nothing is in front of me,
I feel I can’t even breathe)
Don’t think that I can handle this
baby I’m so…
I’m so in agony,
look at the state of me.
Left here,
broken.You said you’d never leave,
look what you’ve done to me.Left here,
broken.Where do I go from here,
I’m so lost.
Do you know how hard it is?
Finding my way through this.
It shouldn’t even be like this.
I shouldn’t have to feel like this,
Noo Noooo Noo(Can’t even have company, nobody can talk to me)
I’m messed up, all that I find myself doing,(Looking at my gallery, drinking and smoking weed)
I hate you for doing this to me boy I’m so.
I’m so in agony,
look at the state of me.
Left here, broken.
You said you’d never leave,
look what you’ve done to me.
Left here, broken.
(Broken ) I never thought I’d feel this low down in my life.
I swear I'm… (Broken )
Everyday I wished that i had died…
And I’m…I’m so in agony,
look at the state of me.
Left here, broken.
You said you’d never leave,
look what you’ve done to me.
Left here, broken…

the single life

2008-01-16T00:14:00.000-08:00

I'm extremely surprised at myself actually....i couldn't live with out a man in my life...and now....i don't really see the point of having one.... I'm a survivor babyyy..

The Single life..isn't as bad as i thought it would be..as offff January 4th 2008 ..i am officially single and not looking.....pretty proud of it actually...maybe it wasn't such a bad thing being single....it has it's pros and cons but hey anything is better than loving someone that never loved you at all....sweat..

I think I'm cursed...do you think I'm cursed...because i really do...i always end up spending valentines day all alone by myself.....oh well...might as well get used to it...thats how its gonna be till the day i die...

People say that the guy whom left me made the biggest mistake..but i don't really think that way actually to tell you the truth i think the opposite way.He made the greatest choice ever in his life....after all..whats the point..we're all going to die....

Clearly i have no life and I'm taking my single life in a bad way...its 3 in the morning and I'm telling you bout how my love life sucks lol....laugh all you want....i cant sleep so i found blogging a great way to pass my time.

The single life...it isn't exactly the good life or anything but it is something..better than being depressed .I'm happier this way...i haven't got over him or anything like that yet but i guess i have to move on some how right.

Oh yea..to everyone whom sent me those wishes and kind words..thanks a billion people...and to everyone whom has asked me out since...I'm sorry u guys...I'm just not ready yet.I hope you understand. :)

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

2008-01-16T00:12:00.000-08:00

Hehe..i love these days...although they make me feel nervous...i always find my self waking up with a smile on these days...First Day Of The Last Year of My Schooling Life...i mean might as well get done with it....

so got to school for the first time in my life before the bell rang...i was proud of myself....allot has changed since the last time anyone saw me....my new hair.....my pierced belly....my pierced nose...new tattoo....i lost 7 pounds f.y.i.......so yeaaaa....NEW KID..they named me....plus the boy that had a crush on me since i was form 3 has now officially talked to me BTW he is a year younger than me k..

I'm proud of him...so...same old crap happens every year....new teachers....old friends...deplorable classrooms....same old cute guys.....so life goes on i guess.....lame first day but hey..it was better than staying at home...

new year's

2008-01-16T00:08:00.000-08:00

so it was new years eve...pretty boring...had like a billion invitations to go out...but i got stuck at home...because there was this freaking big bash at my place too....yes got alcohol thank god..yayy me....but the saddest part was......the kids were dumpedme......omgomgomg..they were super noisy...but i had a few hotties around to help me out i guess...so it wasn't that bad.....
I SAW A GUY CRY....funny?i think not..i tot it was pretty adorable awwwwww.....we were watching x-men...they cried..sobsss....but we created hell i guess...hanging out with the kids wasn't as bad as i thought it would be..hey at least i made it rite???

new years resolutions

2008-01-16T00:05:00.000-08:00

OK people ....it's time....my new year's resolution...i don't want to even write this but everyone is making me...they say it will make me feel better...yea Right.....:P...OK so ermm since it's my last year in school...I've decided to pursue my hopes and dreams of being in the olahraga team...I've been in it for almost 9 years now and so this time i really want to aim big....I'm hoping for the tittle this year...i know it's extremely though but if I'm still surviving after my major heart ache... then anything is possible...(i hope)....
I'm actually thinking of following my friend Izzy to Australia as well....just so u guys know Izzy taught me how to rock climb and he's the reason I've come this far....he makes me climb a wall every time a guy dumps me...sadly he wasn't here for this 1 haiizzz...So yea I'm thinking of climbing some really big mountains there hopefully
Oh yea the Ever Amazing SPM strikes ....kind of got me thinking how fast time went by...Now i really do believe the saying...Life is short.....haiizzz....so my dad has signed me up with this dumb tutor.....ewwwww he looks at me in a really yuckie way...he's this 5o year old guy yuccckkk...couldn't they have hired Jay Sean instead ...oh well to bad so sad...so hopefully my straight "A"s come to life...then its my beloved clubbing life till the day i die....
Oh yeah...no more love unless the person that truly loves me accepts me....i can't afford to get hurt again....1 more and i think my attempts of committing suicide will really come true..ahah did i tell you i wrote a suicide letter to....my so called will la...yea right there wasn't much in there...i was just giving people the custody to whatever i had and the reason for my suicide....i should publish it 1 day ahahahkkkzzzz...so thats right people.....the hopes and dreams of having 2 or 3 children, having Cristiano Ronaldo work as my personal gardener and Jay Sean as the Butler is now officially shattered ...well i guess this taught me not to dream big.....so much for live life to the fullest huh????
OK I've written my resolution shit...why don't i feel any better?well in fact i feel worst!!!!!!

samsons..IM SORRY

2008-01-16T00:01:00.000-08:00

I finally understand
I'm not the only one nor the greatest on in your heart
I never thought this would happen but it already did
That i meant nothing to you in reality
So now please forgive me
While i am still silent to you
Nothing else happened
Except for the fact that my heart broke
When i found out the truth
Please forgive me
Even though i still love you
I have to leave you to yourself
Like u wanted
I have to forget you
Even though i still love you
I have to let you go
I have to set you free
I cant force you to love me
You and only you are the only one
That can understand me
The only one that can bring meaning to me
It is already known
That your the only one that can love me
And the one person that has touched me
Before is someone special
And it clearly isn't me

its been 5 days

2008-01-16T00:00:00.000-08:00

Believe it or not....ive been single for like 5 days i think...isint that like a major accoplishment.....ahhaha yesh yesh be proud of me...oh yea the best part of all is that...i have actually turned down 12 guys...i was like DAMNNNN gal.......i didnt know this could happen.....now im walking tall n proud in my school....not bad ahhhh....well sad part is......i think i have a crush on a guy thats younger than me....i mean i dont like him r anything....i just think he's super cute n he feels the same for me but he actually likes me...i know im supposed to be happy about this but...i actually told him to lay low n forget about me...was i dumb?????crappppwhat happend to the real RESHMI..the 1 that loved to flirt....oh well i guess it takes time to recover...

my best friend is in love with me!

2008-01-15T23:54:00.000-08:00

My oh my never in my life did i ever think this would happen to me....my best friend and the person i trust most in my life is actually in love with me ..alright wait scratch that obsessed over me..and i don't know what on earth to do.

I love him as a friend and nothing more but i don't think he realizes that fact that that my feelings towards him will never change for the better.He has a girl friend yet he is still coming for me...it maybe love to him but i just think that he is blinded by my actions because this boy doesn't even know me or seen me before.....

I think he is an awesome guy n has a heart of gold but i cant bring myself to loving him and even if i do..it will not be sincere as i don't have the passion for loving anyone anymore nor do i have any love left to shower anyone with.

However i will always love him as my best friend no matter wat happens but i dont really know if he would feel the same way after realising that i'm not the right one for him